Hiatus over

Hiatus over.  I am back after taking a while off.  I was really struggling to write. I had to spend some time on introspect.  That is a scary place to be, looking at yourself from the inside out. The real question of the day may be what did I discover? I discovered that no matter how much you want to do something, like lose weight, write or be financially stable, that has to translate into an overwhelming desire to change, and ultimately a lot of hard work.

Going against your nature, and staying committed to the change you want.  Is harder than it sounds.  Until you are determined to face yourself, the battle is a mute point.  Looking at yourself, I mean really looking, facing the things that you don't like about yourself, the things that scare you because they look back from your subconscious and demand to be reckoned with.  Those are the things about ourselves that we can get very comfortable ignoring, until they become bigger than who we really are.  They start to define us in a way we do not want to be defined.  That can be scary as hell, and taking the steps to take control of yourself back, monumental.  People face these battles everyday, some win and some lose, the real worth is in the trying.  Nothing stays the same forever, so conquering something like weight remains an ongoing battle.So the good days and the bad days come and go, and I have to be determined to keep going with them. Finances are better, weight about the same, and writing, lets just say I have some ground to make up.  But tomorrows another day and another chance to get it right. "Tomorrow, tomorrow I love you tomorrow, you're only a day away!"(little orphan Annie)_

                                                               O well