Everytime I think No...it comes out as yes

How many times do we think no but by the time it makes the journey from our brain to our mouth it sounds exactly like yes? Mom can I have.....no,no,no,no...yes. We tell ourselves we want our kids to have everything we can possibly give them, after all we love them more than anything.  What we forget to remind ourselves is that our kids love us more than anything too.  They are looking to us to set the boundaries and the guidelines after all they are children.....right?  Well, I found out that I am not so good at setting boundaries when it comes to telling them no to something they want, which is why I find myself with the New Years resolution of fiscal responsibility.

But what I recently found out from my children is that they are OK with the word No and OK with getting less....imagine that! I am the one who has the biggest problem with feeling I am letting them down.
I am finding out they take it because I give it to them but they are OK with doing without it because they love me. Now comes the the harder part for me relearning that I am not a bad parent because I have to say No.  That its natural for a parent to want to give their children everything that they can. But we need to remember that includes educating them on being fiscally responsible and that sometimes we do without because we have to.    It will not be an easy for me.  I am a giver. If you are a giving personality its what you know and you do it well. I am day 7 into change so keep your fingers crossed I make it through the weekend without breaking my budget.
Its not that they always ask, its just something I feel compelled to do. Changing your nature, something that is part of your core being, I know that is one of the biggest challenges we can ever face.  I don't want to really change my nature as much I want to be able to learn a more balanced way to live with who I am.
So here's to hoping for a little growth on my part ( and I don't mean physically) Lets hope I can make a little better progress on that front as well.....So whosoever out there...strength is in numbers....more dollars and less pounds...and I need all the help I can get!

                    Awe.....Money the root of all Evil....must be why being evil sometimes feels so good!