Money Talks

If money talks, then what is it saying?  I could answer, I don't know, because I never have it long enough to hear anything but the swish of it leaving my hand.  Many of us have the same problem, not enough money for kids, school, house, clothes, food,gas, insurance,cars.......and on and on and on. Money makes the world go round, but how do you get off the spinning axis? I hope to be able to answer that question at the end of this journey. Money is something I have never been able to keep, as I am so willing to give it away.  I feel compelled to help anyone close to me that asks, even if it puts me in a position of having to juggle finances to meet my own obligations. I find it very hard to say no to them.  It makes me feel as if I am letting them down and not taking care of them as I should. I must have an aura that screams sucker, people I don't even know ask me for money.  I was in the grocery store last Saturday and a women asked me to please give her money for the bus.  It was only $2.00, but I did not even hesitate, I gave it to her freely.  This is the part I need to work on, that it is OK to say no, it doesn't mean I am a bad person or I am not meeting the needs of my family or others.  The key word  in that equation is needs not wants. Because sometimes in meeting the wants of those around you, it makes you ill prepared to meet the needs that often come up unexpected.  I just want to be able to meet the unexpected a little better prepared, because one things for certain, the unexpected always shows up. Maybe its possible for me to change at 46 years old and maybe its not.  I will settle for just being a little better.